its been a long while since i last wrote here.

i realised that sometimes it is quite difficult to leave the past behind.

Man are shaped by their memories, which are things of the past. Something etched in a particular corner of their sub-conscious mind. It happens every now and then that these memories can acutally resurface, sometimes bringing hope and inspiration to a person, and sometimes pain and despair.

Which is why i say its difficult to leave the past behind. Memory is like a drug, bringing you to heights of euphoria one moment, then letting you crash down the next. You hate the sorrowful feeling that accompanies the crash, but you cannot let go of that once sweet sensation. What's more, people tend to be masochistic. Just look at those people in love with KOREAN soaps. its so drama papa, with so much crying and sad stuff, yet many are still drawn to it. They love the feeling of sadness which they wrought upon themselves. As such, when people have any bad memories, they tend to relive those instead of the good ones. It makes them feel good to feel sad... ironic?? But that's the complexity of life and what reality is all about. Much like a fantasy novel, if you try to comprehend the realities of life, you are only bound to dig up more mysteries.

i guess that's the way our dear nich is feeling right now. it is difficult for him to forget, because he chooses not to, and the reason he chooses not to is because it feels good to feel sad. it makes one feel like their the main character in an all important, season finale of winter sonata or windstruck.

you guys may think this is a silly thought. however, i feel it is justifiable. Without the downs in life, you cannot truly appreciate the ups. Without having gone through poverty, one will never appreciate the dollar note in his wallet.

anyway i feel that i'm writing crap very tired now will sleep

---mian---